We still had nothing for the baby. No bed nothing… I was very upset and tired – very tired. The last time of pregnancy was the worst. Once I had such a heartburn that I was unable to sleep. Well all women had to go through these things I was not the only one… The next day Salah sent me to bed, he said I looked terrible – sure – no sleep all look like that… However Athana did like things and if not I either had diarrhea or I had a heartburn. It was so severe I had the acid in my mouth… Actually I wished for the day she would finally leave… Actually I was craving for tomatoes and for salt . They told me that all women had certain incompatibleness – Amal for example hated Ludfi her husband, wow – that is something… She could not take his smell anymore. When she had her last days of pregnancy she did not even wish to see him anymore… She even was close to kill him… No kidding. She confirmed… all thought I might have an aversion to anyone – LOL – that was such another great superstition… I was not even upset of Susann, my brother’s wife; even so she had treated me so badly. THAT was her karma not mine… Madame in my belly was talking a lot with/to me… She wanted to be massaged daily. She loved it, she then was much more quiet and did not hurt me so much either. Unfortunately I only found out somehow very late… When I had been in Switzerland and went to my wholesale stone shop, she had chosen stones. A watermelon tourmaline and an imperial topaz. I would have NEVER chosen such sparkling stones – yet she did… She also did not like me to be upset. Once I had been talking abt the political “sandbox game” and made myself clear in an aggressive way… Wow – did she hurt me so badly – I had to stop. When I was crying she did not really react badly; yet when I was aggressive – oi – then she was reacting. It was rather interesting – yet to be honest, I did not spend a lot of time thinking abt her interesting ways – not with that belly… well still I had time to… she hated hypocrisy and “energy vampires”, she hated liars, flatterers and pretenders. She loved honest and kind humans.
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Whenever I wished to show Salah how she moved, she was very quiet. And once when he hugged me – she kicked him. That was awe. For me it was funny, he was very excited. Not in a bad way, but she had kicked him… LOL. However I explained him that this happened to me daily. He still was upset as well that he was unable to attend the birth. WELL – WHEN IN LIBYA - Even Ummi needed a special clearance to be with me. Actually in Libya the whole family would wish to be there, said Salah. Yet how could they manage to feed the whole family? They would need extra hotels for that… Special theatres for relatives? NO, thank you! I hoped Ummi would be there! Yet only the Gods (the half-gods in white) knew – whether Ummi was to stay there or not… Well Libya – i.e. the government hospital had to deliver babies in average 50 per day and up… now all could imagine how fast that went… It was like an assembly line – yes it sounds disrespectful – yet it was more or less that way. We would see and feel.
The body got ready for “delivery”. I had pain like before a menstruation – so it was actually called pseudo-labor. Well the body does many great things „my“ doctor Mustafa M. was not around – he had to attend an operation – his daughter was there. Somehow I was happy to be together with a woman – so we discussed much more different things than I would have with a man… She explained once again how it may happen. And told me only labor which was to come all 5 minutes – then hospital. If the kid was to sign blood not the dark red one when a woman is having during a menstruation but clear red blood then immediately hospital – GREAT – she made me really going fine… Well all first births are tough! Romana had 48 hours of labor! Imagine!
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Salah had a very bad time. No money – i.e. short of cash… Well one has to go through that! My parents had to, too. Yet their bond became much stronger. So, I hoped for the same with us.
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Salah had a nice little event with the youngest son of Amal and Ludfi… Mahmoud – he was teething and had his oral phase. So he took all in his mouth to taste and try the texture of things . Salah was watching the news and was nervously beating the devil’s tattoo on the little table in his mother’s salon. Mahmoud grabbed Salah’s little finger and bit in it, with his “only two first teeth”. Salah claimed that this hurt badly. Mahmoud was fast, he had disappeared very quickly because he felt Salah’s wince… That must have been so funny to watch. I wished I had seen it! Well Mufida laughed loudest but Mahmoud taught her a lesson too, he took her hair in his hands and did not let go anymore… WOW – that reminded me of my bro. I was not a nice sis – I was always hitting him when he was a baby, so once he grabbed my hair and never let go of it… Since then – (and obviously because of the remaining of my “wig” in his hands) – I never ever hurt him anymore! We had been best friends ever since! No kidding – till today he is!
Despite of the terror my husband had because of Mahmoud, I loved Mahmoud best of all the kids fm Amal.
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Salah again: don’t you consider it possible that it is a BOY – not a girl? I knew it was ATHANA finished over and out! Amal and Ummi wanted the kid to look like me – not like Salah – if she looked like Salah – then OMG – that would have been fatal. In addition to that – Ummi said to all of her daughters: if the kid is here – you do not have to come anymore. She only wanted Salah’s baby around her and they should stay in their houses… of course she was joking. Yet her daughters took all of her energies, came to Ummi’s house to eat and drink and take her time. Hardly ever something came back… I felt truly sorry for Ummi. Therefore I did not go there often; i.e. stayed at home. I knew why she had constant trouble with her stomach – her head and also her other energies… As soon as I would be in the position to speak an adequate Libyan – I would tell her in a nice way – that she should not just GIVE her energies so easily. One can protect him/herself! WOW what was I writing here – it was exactly and also my problem as well